Trying hard to be with myself rather than avoiding myself
Trying strong to be more aware of me and my habits rather than numb them
Want to be more with myself then I was ever before
Still have a lot to discover
A lot to explore
A lot to know
A lot to share with myself about myself
But why am I so scared of being with myself
Why am I being a stranger to myself
What is it that makes me so lonely with myself
When I am the person who knows myself more then anyone else
When I should be my best companion
What is it that makes me so scared of being with myself
Why do I always search for company when I can be my best companion
Why do I have to try hard to be with myself?
Why do I have to try hard to be with myself?
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deep!! accha hai.. those long trips to mahape is giving u alot of time with Yourself.. hehe..
ReplyDeleteseriously!! nice thought..
@Dev :Around 4 hrs of travelling everyday what do you expect ...yeh sab free time milta hai na to i do all this...
ReplyDeletefirst of all congratulation on your first blog. good thoughts I must say.
ReplyDeleteNow, at the cost of being a little philosophical...
We all need some one to share ourself's and someone who re-assures you that what you thinking/doing is right and backs you throughout.
Give this some thought. Isn't this the only reason why relationships happen. Your best friends are the ones who 8/10 times agree with you and the remaining 2 times they will be the people correcting you and you will agree with them.
If this doesn't happen, we say 'I don't gel well with that person'. Common ideologies give one confidence and courage to move ahead. This is exactly the reason why even though you understand yourself very well and you think you are your best companion, you tend to look for an external support!!
Nice poem!
ReplyDeleteI think, its rather difficult to understand oneself than understanding others. It happens so that we are in touch with so many people around us that sometimes we tend to imagine their thoughts and ideas as our own.
In the flow of being a people's person, we lose our identity somewhere along the line.
May be thats why, our own heart, our own self seems a stranger....an unknown entity with whom we are afraid to be alone with....
And thats why we keep running away from our own selves, surround ourselves with people and drown out the sound of our own voice.
You poem portrays this beautifully.
Keep it up!
@all : hey guys thanks alot for all your responses on the blog..hope to write amore and share with u guys..till then tc....
ReplyDeleteCheers!
mayuri
hi, this is a really nice way of expressing yourself... i really liked it. keep blogging regularly to put forth more thoughts !!!
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ReplyDeleteWow! Wonder why in all these years we never realized that you such a wonderful way with words.. Or is it only a more recent evolution? Anyway, that was a delight to read!
ReplyDeleteHere's my take on some of the comments you have already recieved..
Ofcourse, no man is an island, and as Shashank points out it is the whole basis of relationships. I tend to agree more with Sonu though. I think the fear of being alone makes us look at ourselves through the eyes of all the relationships that we are involved in. If we remove all these identities - daughter, sister, friend, lover - what's left, or is there anything left at all? As Shashank said, the support and approval of our partner, friends, family gives us the strength to move forward, but is that enough. What's the point of being accepted by others, yet being uneasy in your own skin?
At times, it is so much easier to convince ourselves as being insignificant in this sea of people and relationships than dealing with our individuality.
Maybe you misspoke when you said "When I am the person who knows myself more then anyone else" Are you really? Isn't your opinion of yourself biased by what others have told you? <"you are funny, you are so kind, you are such an optimist, you worry too much, you're so self-centered"> Whatever!
Maybe you ignore yourself in the midst of yearning to be understood by others.
But are you one of the very few who undergo this inner turmoil? Maybe some people never realize these things. Happiness means different things to different people. Just being aware of it is not enough.
Life is fickle, but there is a part of you, which only belongs to you - irrespective of the triumphs, failures, joys, sorrows, budding or faltering relationships you will face. Work on it. Right now you do not know yourself more than anyone else. Because if you did, you would want to be in your own company, you would want to spend more time exploring yourself, just like the people around you want to! You are not your best companion yet. You need to be as popular with yourself as you are among friends!
Learn to be on your own, and learn to enjoy it. There is no protocol to achieve this, but I am sure you will figure it out. Once you are at peace with yourself, you will succeed in not feeling insecure about things that are not in your control.
Phew! That was some word vomit huh!
Deep thoughts..good one..keep them coming!
ReplyDeleteVery nice!
ReplyDeleteHowever here is the caveat to that thought.. once you master the skill of enjoying your own company; 2 becomes a crowd. ;)
Do continue blogging..
super inspiring one..!! however i am scared of being alone, but i am not alone wen i am with self..!!
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